I am ME

I believe in God

But I don't go to church

I live by the 10 commandments

But I don't understand some of God's choices

I do believe that even though I don't go to Church I will definately go to HeAVen

I measure myself against what I want to BE

I'm not the perfect size

Or the perfect mom

I'm not as successful as I think I should be

I'm not as motivated as I should be

However,

I try to motivate myself to become closer to the perfect size

I work on being a better mom

I think about the things I can to do to be successful

I try to think of ways to be more motivated

Some days,

I can't help but think about how disgustingly fat I am

I can't help but think of all the ways I'm a bad mom

I can't help but think about all the things I should be doing to be more successful

I can't help but think about why I can't be as motivated as other moms

And some times,

I can look at myself in the mirror and appreciate that I have nice legs

I can look at how happy my kids are and pat myself on the back

I can count the successes of my life

I can look at all my accomplishments and realize that motivation played a part

But most of the time,

On bad days I can find quite a few things to smile about

And quite a few things to laugh about

I can make myself laugh and smile when I am at my last straw

I can feel a little sexy

And I can forget about everything by just hearing a giggle come from one of my boys

I will never be perfect

Or the perfect size

I will never be as successful as the one I envy

Or the perfect mom

but I am Me